They always have someone else to occupy them and all they do is treat me like shit. I put them first, but in return I’m always their second choice. Most of the time, I just feel like a third wheel, like they have someone better to talk to. I miss how close we used to be back then, now I don’t even feel like telling them personal stuff anymore because I’m afraid that they’ll judge me or think I’m annoying. I don’t even feel that comfortable around them, even though I try to make it seem like everything is normal. I try to act like I’m fine with everything and that we’re still super close, but in reality, nothing is going right, everything is already falling apart, and I don’t even know who my real best friends are anymore.
when all you did was want me out of yours.
What if we hadn’t drifted? Would we still be as close as we were back then? Maybe things wouldn’t be so out of place. What if we became strangers? Would you still remember me a few years later?
I don’t know whether or not I should tell you this, but I like you. Alot. We had a thing going on a few months ago, but you ditched me for your ex. I’m sorry I wasn’t like her, I’m sorry for giving you my all but in the end, I’m still the one who go hurt. When I told you I still had feelings for you, I really meant it. But all you did was pretend like that conversation didn’t exist. It takes a girl alot of courage to admit to her crush that she really likes him, but what did you do? You took my feelings for granted. You acted like nothing happened. When I started developing feelings for you, I had no idea what I was getting myself into. I wish I was that girl you would run up to when you’re going through a rough time or just that person to act silly around. There’s just something about you that I haven’t seen in anyone else. And that’s been the reason why I’m still not over you.
Do you even remember what we had and what could’ve happened between us? Do memories jog back into your head like it does to mine? Do you even miss talking to me? Do you think of me as much as I think of you or could you care less?
You only care about what others think of you. You don’t care about anyone else around you because you’re too busy wasting all your time trying to be the perfect person you’re not.
My careless actions have caused me to lose some very close people in my life. To be honest, I’m getting kind of used to this. I’m used to people walking out because no one ever stays that long anyway. I don’t want to constantly go through this same process over and over again. From now on, I’m going to pick my friends wisely and stick with those who are willing to stay.
Not only does it make you sound ignorant but it makes people think of you differently. Why would you have to lie about who you are? Do you honestly enjoy all that attention? You don’t have to fake the way you look and act just to impress someone, maybe you should just be your true self for once and stop going around acting like someone you’re not.
I thought you were different. I thought you were the one who would be with me through thick and thin, I thought you would be that person who would stick by my side until the very end. I thought you would be the one that would chase after me when I pushed you away. I thought you were that one person who wouldn’t leave me especially in a time like this. Those memories we had are slowly fading away. It seems like you’re better off without me now so I hope you find what makes you happy.
Because you never know when you’re going to lose them. forever. Things might turn out different than you expect it to. Don’t pass up on a good opportunity, you’ll regret it later. Don’t wait too long either. Make a move before it’s too late.They’ll get tired and leave. I’ve learned this from past experiences, and I can’t stop thinking of how stupid I was. So let me tell you my story. There was this one guy, he really cared about me and he was the one who could always put a smile on my face. He wanted me to take a chance but I turned him down. Not because I didn’t want to, but because I didn’t want to get hurt again. He wasn’t like the other guys, he was my best friend. He would be the person I would run to to make me feel better. Haha he was my study buddy too. We would always call each other at night, and he would stay on the phone with me until I fell asleep or I would say goodnight to him before I went to sleep. Sometimes, he would call me during a bad time, and he would know that I’m crying or something was wrong with me. Although I didn’t tell him much, he said he would always be there for me. Don’t get fooled with those words, they say they’ll be there for you until they find someone better. If you’re still reading up to this point, I love you. Well anywho, I was stupid enough to chase after someone else, and I forgot all about the first guy. My friends warned me about this guy though, they didn’t want me to talk to him because they felt like he was going to hurt me. I was an idiot for not listening to them. I wasn’t really paying attention to what I was doing because I was so caught up at the moment. Eventually, the first guy got tired and decided to give up and found someone better, and now they’re currently going out. I’m happy for him. He didn’t deserve to be put up with me in the first place. But me and the second guy were still talking. It wasn’t the same though. I got butt hurt by the first guy so I stopped putting effort in everyone else, I had no motivation to do anything. I wasn’t even sure who I was anymore. I stopped talking to the second guy, because he made me really mad. He didn’t even care about my problems, he just wanted to talk to me because I was his last resort. He claimed that I never tell him about my problems, but I did once, and that was a mistake because he had no interest what so ever. I just stopped talking to him for a few days, and he didn’t like that. But I couldn’t help it, when I said I didn’t want to talk to anyone anymore, I really meant it. He was giving me a hard time so I didn’t want to deal with him anymore. I cut off all connections I had with him and we are currently no longer friends anymore. Seems kinda harsh but the way he acted towards me was really stubborn and I didn’t want to talk to someone like that. The stage I’m in right now, yeah it’s complicated. And my friends aren’t even making it better. But I realized that if you don’t get hurt, then how would you learn?
Right when I thought you were the one, I think back to how you’re already taken. I don’t want to interfere but it’s just hard to resist my feelings for you. I wish you were mine already.
Doesn’t everybody? I can’t learn if I don’t make mistakes, and I’ll admit, I’ve made plenty of them. Some that I regret and some that I don’t. I’ll mess up as many times as I want to and come back as a stronger person. While you’re over there trying to be perfect, I’m actually learning from the mistakes I’ve made. Don’t point out what I’m doing right and what I’m doing wrong. It’s my life, not yours.
